Well this is probably the hardest blog I have written. Not because of the reasons you may think. I didn't know how to face my supporters and followers of my weight loss journey that started way back May 2010. As many of you that were following me know-I went from 275 pounds down to 185 pounds by October 2011. Well let's fast forward to today, January 28, 2013....I now weigh 222 pounds---be mindful I lost 8 pounds this past week. So I see you doing the math...probably thinking damn she gained how many pounds back (45 pounds).
So as you see not only did I feel like I let myself down, but all those that saw me as inspiration or supported me in this weight loss journey. So what happened you ask?----one simple word----LIFE happened and that word that black people don't so often talk about (depression). In 2011 I walked away from my job of 15 years to pursue my destiny of owning an educational consulting company..well that didn't quite go as well as I would have liked...however, my math summer camp was a success. I learned a lot during this period...but due to mounting bills, etc...I was back in the market looking for a job ( depression) reared its ugly head, because I felt like a failure. I clearly remember laying in bed and not wanting to get up to do nothing...but thanks to the support of my mom, my boyfriend and family I was able to pull myself out that dark place.
It still was hard for me to get back to the level of working out and commitment to eating right...because now the job was making my life stressful and miserable...so I went back into my dark place.
Well y'all I am glad to say I am finally back to the person I used to be on my weight loss journey. I am focused, committed, and determined to reach my goal. I am sure of this because I did something yesterday I haven't done in months...ran/walk 10 miles at once---which I ran 4 of those miles non-stop. Even at tonight's workout with my trainer Kenya Crooks I felt the old me inside come out. I got my MOJO back y'all. Stay with me on this ride as I focus and finish to reach my final goal weight.
It is my hope and prayer that my blog will inspire people..particularly those on a weight loss journey...to remain steadfast and know that this is a life-long journey...not a momentary journey.
